The Boozy Truth
On Thursday night I decided to have a drink. As those who regularly read my blog (love you guys) know, I’d been playing with the idea after completing Sober Spring. I’d never planned to give up alcohol for good, just to do the three-month challenge, so it seemed fitting I would drink again when summer began. I was also a little curious to see if my sabbatical from alcohol would have changed my relationship with it…
The night itself was brilliant, I laughed until I couldn’t breathe and drank Peroni without feeling guilty. It didn’t make me angry or agitated as it has done in the past, and I genuinely enjoyed myself. Although in truth, I know it was being in great company that made me happy, not the booze.
Oh. My. Word. I think I’d forgotten how bad hangovers can be. I felt HORRENDOUS and it lasted the entire day. My eyes were heavy, I felt constantly sick and my brain refused to function. By the time I was able to drag my sorry self to bed, I was exhausted and desperate to no longer be conscious – I feeling I never had during Sober Spring.
Drinking is no longer for me. Having felt on top the world during Sober Spring and like I might drop dead at any moment yesterday, I know wholeheartedly that I’m not a drinker anymore. The night was brilliant, but it wasn’t worth the horrific hangover that followed.
I don’t feel bad for having had my boozy night, but I did also want to be honest about it. I know it’s something I needed to do on this personal journey and I’m grateful I did. Why? Because it’s quashed any curiosity I had about social drinking. It’s cemented everything I’ve learnt in the past three months and proved I hadn’t and won’t be missing out on anything. It’s given me confidence in my decision to stick with sobriety.
I’m going to refrain from saying “I’ll never drink again” because it was that kind of boxed in ideology that was bothering me at the end of Sober Spring. However, I will say that, right now, the booze-free is the life for me!
I’ve realised how much doing a sober challenge helps me so if anyone has any they can recommend, I’d be very grateful!