Sober Spring: Seven Days to Go
Sober spring will be over exactly one week today. I will (hopefully) have completed the challenge and have made it 3 months sober for the first time since I began drinking at the tender age of 15. Wow. That feels huge! I’m incredibly proud to have committed to the challenge and humbled by the journey it has taken me on so far. I feel that my life has grown, my soul has been re-awakened, and I’ve reconnected with parts of my self I thought were long lost.
However, the question of what’s next has begun to creep in.
When I set out to do sober spring, I had the three months in mind and that was it. I didn’t want to look beyond that because three months alone felt like a monstrous stretch of time to go without a tipple. Now that I’ve found so much peace and joy in sobriety, I can’t help but wonder if I’d be crackers to give that up. The thought of going back to the Paige before this challenge terrifies me (see my Throwback Thursday posts for a glimpse of what she was like). Yet in many ways, so does the thought of being sober forever.
The truth is, I know that no one would bat an eyelid if I did go back to drinking after sober spring. I think it’s expected by a few people. In the same way, I’ve been so lucky to have mountainous support from friends and family in my decision to quit booze, I know that I could also carry on with the teetotal life.
I have undoubtedly been happier, healthier and more motivated in sobriety. However, I can’t escape the truth that sober spring has coincided with lockdown, meaning that the temptation to spend a boozy afternoon in a beer garden hasn’t been present, and I haven’t had to face the challenge of turning down a night out. I’ve not had to “miss out” because we’ve all been “missing out” together.
For now, I feel the best thing for me to do is set another goal after sober spring which would be 100 days. After that, I think I’ll borrow some AA wisdom and take it one day at a time.
If anyone has any thoughts or advice on this that they would be happy to share, I’d be truly grateful! 💜